Can I Do It?

I was riding around in Erin's car today...listening to music, just cruising the back roads, and I got to thinking about life. I got to thinking about where I am headed. But that changed rather quickly. Because mainly I got thinking about memories. Memories of my life thus far into my senior year. There are so many, with so many different people, and things have changed...so much. Like, there was that time when me and my friend Cortni were obsessed with Wesley and Doug and wrote them secret love letters and would put it in their lockers. They blamed it on Amber Baque, who was strictly innocent. They made her cry....and we had to tell them it was us. Wesley would always act like he liked me..never really did... pick fun on me later...and then eventually down the road..we became partners in drama..like brother and sister. Then there was that time me and Amanda and Tara were getting ready for our first middle school dance, putting on makeup in the bathroom, singing the roof is on fire. Then we went to the dance...and Bobby Beach slid across the floor playing air guitar. Bobby and Amanda were dating at the time. Ofcourse at these dances..NO ONE would dance with each other. They would just stand there and stare at each other and listen to the music. We payed $1.00 just to stare at each other. That night, the girls stayed at my house..and we sang each other to sleep...to country songs.... Amanda eventually ended up singing "Strawberry Bobby.." instead of Strawberry Wine because she was that tired. Aw..the beautifulness of a 12 year old. Then there was the many times..me and my friends would go downstairs on my birthdays and do skits until all hours of the night and record them. Elizabeth bonked her head.... on my bed...Amanda acted drunk..Erin fell asleep even though Adam was on the phone for her all night.... Elizabeth played Chris Vaughan..something none of us will ever forget...we danced around as the spice girls..Tara acted as a man as a tatoo artist....natrual born actresses. And never will I forget first learning to drive at 14. I would always go driving at night with my mom. Any time I had a friend over, they would go with me. Erin always would ride with me at night..and to us..this was fun. We would go for hours...cruising the streets of Weaubleau. Erin, my mom, and I..making memories such as.."you get out you old brown trout.." and "lets go fish bowls." Also..at the age of 14..is when I hit the stage of "Chris Hudson." My first real boyfriend. I'll never forget me and Sara Shirk sneaking out of her house at 11... all night till about 3 to a party..just so I could see Chris..and we could be at the prom party. That night, I ended up taking care of Chris because he was drunk. I also will never forget the many times with Jessica Buist... going over there swimming at her house and wrestling with Eric and Maurice. Then when we hit it up singing and drama style. We started performing at the churches..started up our own little ministry..until it died out. I'll never forget when Bobbie Ball died.... I didn't know her very well...but it was still a very scary thing. I remember holding my friends dear..and crying at Katelyn Marquis's house. I remember my first time on a roller coaster.... I hated it. I remember my first LIFT camp... the memories were crazy.... I loved it. It was the best growing experience ever.....and every single one following.....is the same. I remember my eighth grade grad, the excitement of going to freshman year. I remember freshman year..how nervous I was to be going into freshman year. I remember my first prom, when Kate Phillips took me to prom. It was the funnest experience ever. I remember going to Jordan Creek with Jason, Amber, Mindy, Kayla, Angie, and Sara. We danced the night away...it was awesome. I remember cruising the streets with all of my friends..the back roads..the highways....never can u forget those many nights. I remember the chinese fire drill with Jason and Erin..when Erin forgot to put my car in park and we had to chase my car down the road. HILARIOUS. I remember when me and Bethanie got in a paint fight, mud fight, and fell in a crap pond! And then when would drive Jed's truck around town..go to our special spot, take the dirt bike out and ditch our ex Chris. I remember when me and Kari would cruise around town, go to Sonic, write poems, and when I jumped out of her truck and ran off to my car and she chased me down the road. I remember when I told off Chris for an hour and a half..and he had nothing to say and it felt GOOD. I remember when I dated Robbie for 2 months and then he broke my heart for 6. I remember when me and Erin walked around Weaubleau at 2 in the morning. I remember when me and Haulee, Chris, and Robbie drove around all night.... just chilled as couples. I remember when me and Tara Scott rode on Harleys all night w/ some bikers and then went and watched some movies. I remember when I sang chunky strawberry milk to Chelsey and Haulee in the hallway at school....I remember when I wrecked my car. I remember when me and Adrian and Robbie almost got taken out by these drunk men in this HUGE truck.... I remember when..........
I have so many memories..and its just flying by. There are so many that are coming to me right now that I could put in here but I couldn't possibly fit them all here. But today, when I was cruising with Erin on the back roads..these are just SOME that I thought about. And I thought wow, have I changed. And wow, have these people changed. And WOW...I know I will change. And I know that saying goodbye is going to be hard. Can I do it?

It's been awhile..

I Saw Aliens!!